Novel based on a true story of a search for life's meaning tragedy and redemption . 

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''The night air is warm and humid the night air damp as I absentmindedly allow it fall between my fingers . I hear the familiar sound of waves against the shore A sound I've grown used to , the constant backdrop to my happiness and ultimate despair .

The platform sits on a calm sea. Patiently awaiting my arrival . It's eerie beauty welcomes me . It's the place I've chosen , it's my special place . As the cool breeze caresses my my body and ruffles my hair like an old friend I feel the knife in my pocket , I run it's serrated blade across my thumb .. I see the top of the wine bottle the bottle of pills and my camera . 

The platform is indeed my special place , it's the place I've chosen to die . ''